Whats Next?

What is your vision, your focus, your light?
What more can I do to make them all bright?
I feel something inside me, a burning in my soul,
An expression of simple words that has gone untold,
I don’t understand this desire but hope to inquire,
Of an energy that inspires which I’ve prayed to acquire,
I found something that has changed my mind,
Changed my mode of thinking and concept of time,

I have made a discovery beyond description, a gem in the open and pray this discovery can also see me. A gem that inspires me more than a dream but lack the understanding of my emotions only known by something greater than myself.  You have motivated me in immeasurable strength and wish I could provide you it in return.  By that I mean, if only I could be as equally amazing, what a change there would be.

The words I wish I could say are complicated but my message is simple.  I like you very much and a still small voice inside me keeps telling me to keep trying.  I wish there were a second chance to show you who I am, a restart now that my mind is clear.  I have tried in my journal many times to explain how you make my life better and the only thing I can manage to say is; “she hits me in the core”.

I wish you could see me for what I am, the person who is willing to sacrifice everything to make you smile.  I want to be that kid who makes you more happy than any other.  I want to be that person that can look at you and know what is on your mind without words.  I want to be that person you turn when you need a shoulder to cry on, the person that you can hold onto and know I am never going anywhere.  I want to be that person that reflects the energy you provide me like the moon does for the sun.  Yeah, you hit me like that.

That is not something that will happen over night, we are just at the beginning.  But you hit this kid deep in the core like no one ever has.  I have never felt the need to be around someone and learn everything about them before.  My mind has never been stolen by someone ever before.  I have never met someone that for unexplainable reasons does what you do to me.  I have never liked anyone before, I have had interestes but never someone that just hit me like that where I was willing to pay whatever toll to make it work.  I am right here, willing to push in all my chips to see what could happen.

If I could express my thoughts it would go something like that.